I woke up this morning feeling the effects of this newly discovered malady.
Yesterday, I mentioned a convergence. This morning, I realized what it is…
The season is about to change in my life…
Since I have been in KC, my life has been occupied with reconnecting with my wife and children, learning how to stay peaceful while watching the value of our nest egg shrink before my very eyes as the stock market crashes, finding employment and beginning to write.
In the midst of all of this, I have had much time to think about the future and reflect on the past. I have also had innumerable opportunities to worry, but I can no longer indulge in that!
In a word, it has been winter. The harvest of many years of hard work has been brought in and put in the barn. My leaves have fallen and I have been standing exposed for the past 4 months.
In four weeks, possibly sooner, a new season will dawn in my life. I will begin working for someone, developing new routines, etc. I will start putting down roots in this new soil where I have been transplanted. New growth will become evident.
While this is obviously a welcome change, it is not without its own concerns. As the head of a household and as a man who realizes that he will be held accountable for his choices and actions in life, the rapid approach of real and long lasting change is slightly daunting.
For nearly two decades, I have hoped for an opportunity to regularly teach the Bible to a group of people. However, now that it might actually come to pass, my heart wonders if I am being presumptuous. After all, 60-80 people will be looking to me to give them spiritual food every Sunday! That is no small thing!
The job in Blue Springs, at least at this time, doesn’t seem to be filled with opportunity. It seems more like just a job. But, is this the right job? The last two companies that I have worked for were not the best places to work. Have I chosen another one just like the previous two?
In the end, God is ultimately in control. All that I can do is all that I can do. After that, it is up to Him. He is my shepherd. I shall not want.
